Beyond Words

HI!
aww long time no blog alr = no entry =no long essay
my blog is officially dead!
haha as i'm really superly lazy and tired of blogging
hahaha probably lost the interest or motivation.
and also bcus O lvls are nearing!
so why am i here agn?
well i'm hereby to announce tt i'm closing down my blog officially.
oh well i should have make this entry long long ago as it have alr rotted for quite sometimes.
so this would probably b e last entry posted on pokpokkk.
but my blog will still b in this manner, i wont delete it.
may reopen agn after O's
OR
move 'house' meaning a secret blog just for me.

haha but i love pokpokkk so probably i won't b moving 'house'.
yeah! hope so...
:D

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okay GOOD BYE!
GOOD BYE POKPOKKK

misses & <3s

why?
why am i always alone?
why do i have to so miserable?
why do i have to undergoes all the saddness and pain everytimes?
why do i have to cry everytimes?
why do i have to cry myself to sleep?
why aren't thr someone for me when i need he/she?
why cant i be a stronger girl?
why am i so powerless?
why do i have to control all my emotions?
why am i like this?
i lost control. distances are growing...

am i asking alot?

im not fear to be all alone to fight,

jus tt i dont like the feeling of being abandoned.

esp whn you are not all alone in the first place.

firstly someone left me.

followed by my two best friends and now another...

(things are not the same anymore if you hadn't realised)

i hate to b left behind by others, when we were so closed at tt pt of time,

it all jus happened so suddenly.

impt ones jus step into my life and left easily,

without knowing how hurtful it is.

my heart is weak, i cant take it anymore.

if i noe how hurtful it is, in future i wont let anyone step in so easily anymore .

pls dont blame me for being like this cus im jus trying to protect myself.

i dont know how long i can still hold on...

flashing back of those old memories will jus

make me teared and miss..

everything!

okay sad no more. time to cheer myself up!

cus it is ALWAYS MYSELF AND MYSELF ONLY!

buck up!

gambette!

Ps. i felt much better after typing all out since i've no one to talk to.

even tho i noe it is not healthy to vent all emotions on my blog :))